BLOOD AND GUTS IN HIGH SCHOOL KATHY ACKER PDF

Everything around it seemed dull by comparison. Teen gangs like the Scorpions had been on her mind since becoming involved with the downtown scene when she moved back to New York. Discovering a breast lump, she underwent a biopsy that turned out benign. And further on: Having cancer is like having a baby. You can feel your lump, and you nurse, knowing I will always get bigger. It eats you, and, gradually, you learn, as all good mothers learn, to love yourself.

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Everything around it seemed dull by comparison. Teen gangs like the Scorpions had been on her mind since becoming involved with the downtown scene when she moved back to New York. Discovering a breast lump, she underwent a biopsy that turned out benign. And further on: Having cancer is like having a baby. You can feel your lump, and you nurse, knowing I will always get bigger. It eats you, and, gradually, you learn, as all good mothers learn, to love yourself. By now she and Gordon no longer lived, or expected to live, as a traditional couple.

Best friends and roommates, they had established completely separate lives. Still, that year they got married on a freezing February afternoon at City Hall. There was no reception, party, or other acknowledgment of the event. I still wonder about it. Perhaps it was because. Six months later they separated permanently. Gordon moved out of the apartment, into his East Sixth Street studio.

Father dumbfounded, but not denying it : Sally and I just slept together for the first time. How can I know anything? Janey in amazement. It was only out of petulance : You ARE going to leave me. Oh no. Father also stunned : I never thought I was going to leave you. I was just fucking. We like the same things. Janey showing no emotion : Oh. What does she do? Janey trying to be helpful : It always takes awhile.

Janey: Are you going to want to live with me again? Father: Oh, Janey. Things just got too entangled. Everything between us is still too entangled for me to be with you. Janey: I see. That means no. Father: Right now I just really like opening my door to this apartment and walking into my own space. Kathy had her own life and I had my own life, with Kathy in it.

The relationship was not going to change, and I was now marked as a married man. I realized I had to get out.. The exchanges between Janey and her father comprise the first scenes of the book, but they were clearly the last to be composed.

It could be that the disturbance of her final separation from Gordon prompted Acker to arrange this collection of outtakes and unpublished writings into a disjunctive but emotionally continuous work. And drugs. Just about everybody converged on the same four or five places every night. The publication was going to be funded by Sol [LeWitt]. I did one cover, and Bill Wegman did the cover and illustrations for Toulouse Lautrec.

But after the two books came out, Ingrid called me and Ted to a meeting and made us sign an agreement saying we had no claim to the publications. I think Kathy decided to have Ingrid handle the hatchet. We ended up with fifty copies each of the books, if that. Things were changing. I stopped speaking to Kathy. Founded in by veteran publisher Michael Roloff, Urizen built an impeccable reputation publishing translated works by such international writers as Peter Handke, Augusto Boal, and Julia Kristeva and by American writers like Sam Shepard and Michael Brodsky.

At best, they were ambivalent. This negotiation dragged on for two years, but it was never to be. Mainstream commercial publication seemed just a heartbeat away. I want everything. I want to go out in the world as far as I can go; and I have to work as hard as possible so I can get enough fame then money to get away from here so I can become alive; and, regarding career, There are two levels.

Fragmented, bratty, and raw, the book took on new life as a mass-cultural object that would not have occurred had it debuted in with Urizen or a smaller, more exclusively literary trade press.

She was the first to admit that Blood and Guts was conceived more as a collage than as a continuous text. They got the last two chapters in the wrong order. No one noticed! In it, among other things, she finally exacts her revenge upon Peter Gordon for finding a girlfriend he likes. Dear Peter, she writes: I think your new girlfriend stinks. She is a liar all the way around because her skin is yellow from jaundice, not from being Chinese like she pretends.

Love, Rosa Had her publishers listened to her, the final sentence of Blood and Guts Shall we find our way out of all expectations? But by then her image was everywhere — have a glass of champagne — and it would no longer matter that much.

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She composed Blood and Guts in fragments, in her notebooks and as drawings, over five years that began when she was twenty-six years old and living with the composer Peter Gordon in Solana Beach in Dreams cause the vision world to break loose our consciousness, Acker writes in Blood and Guts. And also: Dear dreams, you are the only thing that matter. Working on her first serial novel, The Childlike Life of the Black Tarantula, in Solana Beach in , she attempted to regain a childhood consciousness, pushing herself toward a point of self-dissolution through sex and hallucinogenic drugs. Kathy gave her a large drawing that my mom had framed. Later, Kathy took the maps back, to include in Blood and Guts. Smith was trying to get rid of Janey so he could spend all his time with Sally, a twenty-one year old starlet who was still refusing to fuck him.

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Blood and Guts in High School

Learn how and when to remove this template message Acker was associated with the New York punk movement of the late s and early s. The punk aesthetic influenced her literary style. These books contain features that would eventually be considered postmodernist work. Burroughs and Marguerite Duras. Acker defined her writing as existing post- nouveau roman European tradition.

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